Moving Baby

It is simply amazing to feel the baby move inside of you. At 28 weeks, Phoebe is moving all day long. When I'm resting, it is just like she wants me to know she is there. Tom felt her move for the first time on Christmas day. Before that he was convinced she was freezing him out. :) Now, I can even see my belly shake when I am lying on my back. Pregnancy is truly a miracle.

What's normal? Learning to Trust!

I've always been a worrier. Even as a kid, I was an expert. When I would go to a sleep over I'd check my bag several times to make sure I'd have everything I needed. Then at the sleep over I would check my bags several times through the night to make sure I had all my stuff. I was so worried about losing something.
Now the temptation draws me to worry each time I feel something new with this pregnancy. Questions dart through my mind. Is this normal? Does this mean something bad? What if something is wrong with the baby? It seems I always jump to the negative.
Each sensation has become a call from God to trust Him. A call to trust that he has knitted this life together in my womb. A call to trust that he know the plans for both my future and Phoebe's future. A call to remember he is good.
I'm sure once the little one arrives, I have another new invitation to trust.

Feeling pregnant

Before getting pregnant, I never imagined how it would totally throw your body a curve ball! It's almost something out of a sci-fi movie. Feeling another little person kick and headbutt you from the inside is hard to imagine if you have not felt it before. Little Phoebe is quite the active thing. She'll probably end up like her dad - constantly on the move, even in her sleep. But with each passing day, motherhood becomes a little more real and my belly seems to become even a little bit bigger. I'm finally starting to get pregnancy questions from people I don't know well, like "When are you due?" "Is it a boy or a girl?" "Can I touch your belly?" This belly touching will take some getting used to. I'm only at 21 weeks now. I can't imagine how many people will want to feel my belly when I'm in my eighth and ninth month. It is helping me get over my remaining personal space issues that is for sure. But for the record, if some person I've never met before asks the belly question, the answer is definitely no!

I'm going to have a little girl! Phoebe Jo.

It became real as Tom and I watched the baby wiggle and kick on the computer screen. I'm going to be a mom! A mom of a little girl. Am I ready? I'm getting there. Am I ready for the daily battle it will take to get her hair into a pony tail? Am I ready to be a barbie doctor? Am I ready for the high pitched screams and giggles? Am I ready for the drama? Not yet, luckily mommies grow as little girls grow. I'm anxiously awaiting your arrivial - Phoebe Jo Fuerst.